10 mile Breast Cancer 3-Day training walk in 30 minutes...

...but I'd really like to curl up back in bed, but I can't sleep, so why try.  Have been up since 3:45 am researching breast cancer.

This internet thing has gotten out of hand.

I have an old set of Encyclopaedia Brittanica in my storage room.  Bought them to circumvent college and read through to educate myself ( ah, the glow of pot.)    Actually, they're now 32 years old and look brand new - as in - virtually unopened.

So, obvious that I'm no more educated by the $800.00 set (although beautifully bound with gold edges) than before the purchase (like me standing in a garage all day going "vroom, vroom" will still not make me a car) - I find my need to glean information - thirst really- quenched by spending awfully, ridiculous amounts of time going here and there in search for "more input".

Training & fund raising for the 08 Chicago Breast Cancer 3-Day (08/08/08) my world has been consumed with educating myself with breast cancer information, facts, risks, yada, yada, yada...

One of my team mates was recently told by her doctor that she's getting "ideas in her head" from the 3-day about her body.  Hmmm really?  You mean that painful lump is from reading the Komen website, and could have nothing to do with the fact that I HAVE A PAINFUL LUMP???

So, while in training for the many miles to walk, in a row (60 in 3 days) I've discovered that hmmm I have soreness in one breast.  So change bras - I'm right in between cup sizes & hard to fit all this loose skin - cup too big - no support - can cause pain?  cup too small - squished - can cause pain?  Okay, well during BSE (breast self exam) and discovering a lump, oh and puckering, oh and slight nipple discharge -classic symptoms of breast cancer (is there such a thing) ...

All this to say - I am waiting for results from one test, while waiting to have 2 more tests this next week while waiting to walk in the breast cancer 3-day while thinking I have breast cancer.

And I've got nothing more to say about the matter...

so I'll go walk...

and then research some more.

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[jude]

No breast cancer.

Big words. Wonderful words.

Steroid shots in shoulder (rotat. cuff) threw my HORMONES out of whack.. fibroids, emotional, nipple discharge - the whole deal. Who knew something that would help my shoulder to make it through the training & walking the 60 miles (never knew how much arms you use w/ walking until moving it w/ each step shoots pain through the roof) would cause me to feel like I was going to be having a monthly cycle - one I haven't had in 4 years - thank-you-very-much!!!